Migraine and Headache Awareness 2015 #6- Song of Hope

Day 6 Prompt- Song of Hope: What song gives you hope to hold, despite your Migraines or Headaches and how?

Music has many purposes for me as I move through my life with Cluster Headaches and Migraines.  When I am really in need of some HOPE I tend to listen to what I call anthem songs.  To me these are songs that fit the moment I am in and just make me want to sing at the top of my lungs (usually reserved for when I am home alone). 

Today I want to share two songs with you.  Each song speaks of a different time in these 5 1/2 years.

My First Song...... Sara Bareilles- Brave (live)

This song is so powerful to me because the words speak to the earlier days when my Cluster Headaches had taken over my life and I was unable to leave my home or even express to anyone how I was feeling.  I didn't hear this song until well after I made it through that period of my illness.  As soon as I heard the words, I thought to myself how honest they are. 

LYRICS:

You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody’s lack of love
Or you can start speaking up
Nothing’s gonna hurt you the way that words do
When they settle ‘neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

Everybody’s been there, everybody’s been stared down
By the enemy
Fallen for the fear and done some disappearing
Bow down to the mighty
Don’t run, stop holding your tongue
Maybe there’s a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

And since your history of silence
Won’t do you any good
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don’t you tell them the truth?

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

See, in my life it didn't really matter what others said to me.  My inner voice was constantly beating me up.  To overcome this, I had to be brave enough to look at myself in the mirror and find the good in myself.  In the past, my self worth was always about my level of education and my career.  Once neither of those mattered I didn't know who I was anymore.  So I had to get out there and see what else the world had to offer. 



My Second Song.... Rachel Platten -Fight Song

This is a new song to me.  But the second I heard it, I knew it would quickly become my new anthem for where I am at this moment in my life and illnesses...

LYRICS:

Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion

And all those things I didn't say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

Losing friends and I'm chasing sleep
Everybody's worried about me
In too deep
Say I'm in too deep (in too deep)
And it's been two years
I miss my home
But there's a fire burning in my bones
And I still believe
Yeah I still believe

And all those things I didn't say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

A lot of fight left in me

Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
Starting right now I'll be strong (I'll be strong)
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

Now I've still got a lot of fight left in me

Whether I am fighting the pain, others' opinions or my own demons; this song speaks to how strong I am.  There are days where I don't know that I can make it through to another.  When those days come around, I put this song on and know that I have so much more fight in me!!!!

 

"The Migraine and Headache Awareness Month Blog Challenge is organized by the American Headache and Migraine Association."